this is unsettling. i have a general idea what i want this space to mold into, but i can't seem to draft it on paper. all the small details have started to consume me. nitpicking code for standards compliance leads to a desire for a more functional layout and i'm back on square one. and other technologies such as PHP and mySQL that are slightly above my reach come into equation and everything goes down the toilet, reducing me into a hunk of tired flesh rotting in front of a glowing tube. my only consolation is knowing that everyone else works hard before coming up with something they can be proud of. sometimes i wish i had special underwear that would turn me into a superhero. boy, i'm tired.