go ahead and stick your fingers closer to the fire! feel its warmth, inviting you for a little dance with flickering yellow tails amidst its stationary blue center. what a pretty little sight! experience has taught you that it will burn when you get closer, but you like that danger. you like the excitement. you adore knowing that within your reach is a powerful element, having somewhat a little control over it. control in the form of avoidance, protection, the ability to conquer it with a single wisp of breath, and control to make it bigger, destructive, and painful. you yearn for that magical split-second, just to get your feet back on the ground and make you realize that hey guess what, you're alive and kicking, the wirings of your body are intact and you can feel pain. ow. why the hell did you do that for?

was it coldplay or radiohead that proclaimed 'just because you feel it, doesn't mean it's there'? well, feel the ground you walk on. twiddle your toes. taste your saliva, bat your eyelashes and scratch your ear. how far are you willing to numb yourself of life by avoiding pain? pinch yourself and try to wakeup. aren't you glad you're not in a dream?